INTP (kind of...)

Got on here to write about INTPs cuz I was bored and procrastinating, reread my first post (First Impressions) and am currently questioning my younger self. I guess I get what I was going for at the time. I was trying to be real. I was also being pretty strange (which is actually kind of normal, inside my own head, at least). Being an INTP, I tend to be more reserved and think through what I say before I speak. The dialogue inside my head is a lot bolder than what comes out of my mouth. Apparently this filter doesn't always transfer over to writing, which I can kind of understand. In writing, I have a chance to think about what I'm saying and edit it before anyone else sees, so I'm not quite as cautious as when I speak. Speaking involves rapid responses to stay in tune with the conversation, not leaving much time to think up something perfect while it's still relevant. Plus, you don't have an erase or do-over button. I like to process things, which takes time because for some reason I have caught myself running over the same couple-sentence thought in my head ten times or more before it leads into something new. This repetition of thought makes it harder for me to think of a witty or deep response in time before the conversation moves forward to other points. (Currently thinking I'd do well as an Ent (or Entwife because I'm female, but we never really meet them to see how slow or fast paced they are, so I can't compare myself to them without making assumptions. I mean, they did take off without their men. How were they planning on keeping their kind alive? Some hasty thinking on their part, perhaps.).) Anyway, when I do choose to speak hastily, it normally ends up being with heavy sarcasm. That is pretty much my one witty and slightly automatic response, the one thing I can count on when I don't have time to think of something better. I use it far too often and sometimes end up sounding quite rude (like when someone super-excitedly asks if I want to be her partner for a discussion and I automatically say "no" without any thought, meaning to be entirely sarcastic, and she just totally deflates). I like the phrase that I came up with (I know, liking your own work, yada yada...) that I write eloquently but speak incoherently.

I don't know how much of a point there was to that ramble, but I did end up speaking a little bit about being an INTP. Maybe I'll make a new post later discussing it more.